I used to...

be able to sleep late and wake up early without worrying what time i will some rest during the day. But now, I have to make sure I have enough sleep just to make sure I don't fall asleep while driving to work in the morning. Yes, I tend to be very sleepy while driving. Coffee sound so good but if I were to have coffee before I go to work, I have to make time for toilet break. Hahahaa...
Anyway, what can I share about my workplace? Other than the fact I drag myself to work on a daily basis. That's right. I hate my workplace. I don't hate the job. Somehow the place and the environment doesn't really motivates me to work harder than I should. Guess I need to figure out a way for me to inspire myself. Of course some some cute guys would definitely help to boost that. Hehehe... Guess, when you are so used to work in a team who will give you 101% of support, it's not easy to see a very divided team mates who has their own share of work. Too add salt to the wound, our so called boss is not exactly a very inspiring person. I thought someone with experience would be mature enough to realized threat does not give you the result you want. Sending news on salary cut and unemployment statistics doesn't help in boosting your team to work harder. It just gives you the opposite. I just can't believe how shallow some people can be nowadays.
Yikes! It's midnight. I have to iron my clothes and get myself ready to go to bed. Need to wake early tomorrow. No, I'm not going to work early because I want to. But I have to sneak out of the house before Hani gets up. The things you do just so your kids start their day in a better mood than yours.

Batte of the fittest

I'm battling with myself actually. Trying hard to get use as a working mother of two very unpredictable kiddos. I know it's going to be hard. But not to the extend I lost all my sixth sense to my overwhelming exhaustion upon arriving home from the office.
Today we decided to go to TESCO hypermarket to buy groceries and things for Halimah. Since Hubby went home earlier, he went to MIL's place to pick them up. And I went straight home and took a shower. Asked whether she wanted to tag along and waited for her to get ready. Once we got to the car, I realized I didn't pack any diapers nor supplies for Imran and Hani. Since it should be a quick one, I just shrug it of and went on. BIG MISTAKE!!!!
Arrived TESCO, the moment I stepped onto the escalator, Hani screamed. I was stunned. We tried to calm her down when all of a sudden Hubby thought of checking her diaper. True enough she pooped. To make matters worse, it has been there for quite some time that she screamed because her bottom was stinging her. I wanted to scream at someone. But who else should I get angry other than myself. I should've been able to detect the smell. I always did. It broke my heart to hear her cry when I wash cleaning her in the washroom. I had to carry her throughout the shopping ordeal because she was in pain. Of course the fact that she's not wearing diapers just scared Hubby. Hahaha...
I can't believe how I can be so ignorant towards my kids nowadays. I do kiss them every morning before I leave. And do hug them when I see them after work. But the fact that I did not detect anything was wrong with them is definitely alarming. I really need to get myself on track my Imran and Hani. Especially Hani. It seems that she's rejecting the idea of having a maid in the house. She felt abandoned at some point. I just hope this phase will go away and eventually realize that I'm not leaving her with a stranger. Just a new addition to the family.
As for Imran, he's having a time of his life. Another person to bully and turn to when Hubby wants to 'cubit' him for misbehaving.

So here it goes...

I have an Indonesian maid. She's from Jawa Timur. A 35-year old lady with 5 kids. Age range from 16 to 2 years old. She has been here for a year plus. Don't really know what happened to her previous employer though. MIL said it was something about she had been treated badly by the wife. Nobody can clarify that anyway. So just have to take her words for it.
Anyway, yesterday her probation starts. As of now, we're sending her together with the kids to MIL. MIL will be screening her for us. Since the main reason to get a maid was for someone to take care of the kids. I'm not too keen on the idea of leaving the kids alone with her. Especially we found out Hani is kinda scared of her. I wonder if somehow Hani feels that she's being abandoned by me and MIL when she saw the maid. You can never tell with kids. Somehow they have such an incredible sense that we would never figure out. I just hope this will be a temporary phase. MIL has been having trouble keeping both Imran and Hani in control. They have already started to bully each other. It won't be long when they'll gang up to bully the others.
As for the maid, she's okay. It's still too early to tell. I really hope I don't have to send anyone back but the decision is not mine to call. It's up to my kids. If either one of them doesn't feel comfortable with her, I might want to try out playschool for Imran. Where the heck can I found one within walking distance from MIL's place?
Oh by the way, our maid's name is Halimah. She calls me, IBU and Hubby, BAPAK. I'm wondering how confused will my kids be when they hear BIBIK calling me with the same call name as theirs. Hmm... should I change to Mom instead? Hahaha!