My Angels....

Meet my two angels... These photos were taken when they were just a few hours old.

Name: Imran Haris Mohd Azli
Date of Birth: 16 August 2005
Time of Birth: 12:12 pm

Name: Rizqeen Hani Mohd Azli

Date of Birth: 17 August 2007
Time of Birth: 12:14 pm

2 birthday parties and a birth day

It has been quite sometime since my last entry. Just got time to update the counter. Heh! Let's see if I can recall what has happened for the last few weeks....

12/8/2007 - Imran's early birthday bash
Due to request from relatives and hubby's firm decision on having it, I had to agree to have a small family party for Imran's 2nd birthday. Wondering why I HAD to agree..? Well, having to entertain guest and prepare for the party is not exactly what a full term pregnant lady would want to handle. But hey! How many times does my son going to turn 2 right? It was an excuse for another family gathering anyway. Happy to inform Imran really enjoyed it. He had so much fun playing with his uncles and aunties that he didn't even eat his cake.

14/8/2007 - Final pre-natal check-up
As expected baby still in transverse position, so we decided to go for 20/08/2007 for the birthday. Actually my parents requested that date because it's the only date they will be able to visit. hah!

16/8/2007 - Another birthday celebration for Imran
Just a very small celebration with just me, hubby, in-laws and a few guests who were staying with us for a few nights.

17/8/2007 - The birth day of new baby!
Baby just couldn't wait for next week. Guess with 2 birthday parties, she just can't wait to have hers. Had the pain throughout the night but Imran was not feeling very well, I just ignored it. So, early morning went to the bathroom, got another sign. Woke hubby up (he just got back from night shift), told him we need tog et to the hospital pronto! Fortunately he was not in a grumpy mood which he usually does if he doesn't get enough sleep. But oh! We made a stop at the clinic first to check on Imran's fever. Sent him back to the house, then only we got to Razif. The funny thing that happened when I was waiting, I already told the receptionist that I'm there because I'm ready for labor, but one nurse came up to me and asked whether I have done the urine test. Whatever for do I need to do the test??!!! I think I had to tell like 3 nurses before I got to the doctor. Finally when the doctor checked, baby is now in breech position. HA HA HA! I was immediately prepared for c-section. At 12.14 noon, Rizqeen hani was born. Guess I should have taken the advice of letting my babies have the same birthday date.
Imran Haris was born on 16/8/2005 at 12.12 noon.

25/8/2007 until 2/9/2007 - In Jengka for confinement treatment

That's all I could update for now.. As for the photos, maybe later Dybb. Right now I have to deal with a moody toddler and a quite demanding baby. Imran has not been feeling very well since his birthday. I have to bring him to the clinic in the morning. This is the third visit. Hopefully doctor's theory on his allergic to cow's milk is wrong, cause if he is allergic, I have no idea how to deal with that. Let's wait for the result tomorrow. As for Hani, well.. she's just being the baby that she is...

Birth Date Dilemma II

We have decided on not sharing the birth date. Actually hubby's reason did made sense on why they should not be sharing the date. They're already sharing the month, let them at least got their own date for it. heheh.. sounds lame rite? Some even mention they're already sharing zodiac anyway. I have to admit, that did not cross my mind. heh! Unfortunately, both will have to share one birthday party. August babies...!!

The exact date has not been finalized yet. It depends on the next check-up scheduled next week. Transverse position, whatever date the doctor suggests we'll take. If the baby decided to turn to her right position, hmm... totally forgot to ask since the doctor did not give the option for that one. She actually informed us that it's very unlikely to happen.

Then again I wonder if we have to wait until the baby is ready. If the baby turned. I am already having a terrible mood swing. The worse ever. Almost every night I would bawled my eyes out for no reason. Sometimes I feel like taking a long drive and I do not want to come home. I just want to go on driving. I felt neglected, ignored, and with all the discomfort of pregnancy, physically and emotionally, I do not feel like I'm loved at all. And I want meat!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA........... my in-laws are not exactly as carnivore as I am. I do not remember the last time I had beef or lamb. Ooohh... If only I could get my hands on perfectly done lamb chop or a very nicely done rib-eye steak. I know fish are good, especially in my condition and of course for my son. I wonder if hubby would bring me out to eat tonight? Maybe I should wait. But then again.. wait till when? I'm counting the days for labour. After that it would be at least 2 months with NO MEAT AT ALL!!!! huwaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Birth date dilemma

It has been quite some time since I updated this blog. Like i said, it's not that easy to actually write something for other people to read.

Anyway, went for the usual check-up this morning and kinda expected the news that my precious baby is still in transverse lie position. Since I am already 35 weeks pregnant AND the space is no longer that big anymore for the baby to move about, chances for her to turn to a normal position is quite thin. There goes my chance for normal birth. Due to the fact that I had already went for c-sec for my previous child, the doctor informed me they will not wait until the full term of 40 weeks for labour. Reason given was the risk of the previous scar being overstretch. Don't know if that's the right term but definitely the easiest to explain and understood by me. Hah! So, he told me that on the next check-up, two weeks from now (37th week) if the baby is still in transverse, we would have to pick a date for c-sec. Her suggestion was on the 38th week which falls on 21st of August.

Now, my dilemma is that my mother in-law as well as my father have given me the idea of having the same birthday for my son and the new baby, which falls on 16th of August. I have not discuss this with hubby yet. Kinda too early to decide anything. Still got two more weeks to go!

What do you think?

The Choice

Extract from Og Mandino's The Choice

The key is choice. You have options. You need not spend your life wallowing in failure, ignorance, grief, poverty, shame, and self-pity. But, hold on! If this is true, then why are so many of us apparently elected to live in the manner? The answer is obvious. Those who live in unhappy failure have never exercised their options for a better life because they have never been aware that they had any choices. So many of us spend our lives searching for happiness. Like children hunting Easter eggs we dash hither and yon hoping to discover some mystical bluebird. Life would be so different, we sigh, if only we were happy. And so, one hurries home to be happy and another flees home to be happy. One is getting married to be happy and another is getting divorced to be happy. One takes expensive cruises to be happy and another labours overtime to be happy. Endless search. Wasted years. Madness. Always the moon is out of reach, the fruit not quite ripe, the wine too dry. Shadows. Tears. Our pillows know the truth.

The craving for 'cencaluk'

God..!! I feel like a tonne in weight. Tummy's not so big but the difficulty of carrying myself to point A to point B is not and easy task anymore. Especially with a quite demanding toddler asking for attention every second. Thank you for grandparents. Hahaha... To those who have this kind of intervention please admit to at least to yourselves that sometimes you're just glad they're there to spoil the grandkids. Heh!

Lately it's kinda easy to lose temper. Some call it pregnancy blues, as for me it's a combination of my own temper which I have been trying so hard to control all these years plus the neglect which I've been feeling right now. I was hoping that during this last few weeks of pregnancy, hubby would be more sensitive to my needs. Unfortunately something came up which turned his attention towards something else. Can't blame him though. I've got myself to blame anyway. Seriously I can't blame my husband for being ignorant. There are some things that husband just don't get it. Like the idea of craving for things.

This week I found out that I crave for 'cencaluk'. Just one pinch once a day. Oh dear! It was not easy for hubby. He can't even stand the smell. Let alone the taste. Of course I told him not to even think of tasting it. He doesn't have to. It started when my staff bought the damn thing at had it for lunch. When I came to inspect the stuff they put on the table. That's it! I opened the bottle and it became an appetizer. Just had to try it. I have never ever tried 'cencaluk' before. Please note I did not go out and buy it yet due to the supply from my staff. But once the supply has run out, I told hubby I have to buy and replace the one I have eaten. He gave me this one look of disapproving my action. He thought once the supply is gone I would be okay and just ignore the craving. Honestly, I thought so too. But I was soooo wrong. After waiting for 2 days, I just can't stand it anymore. So last night, I was moody because hubby wouldn't make a quick stop at Giant for me to get it. I just took off with my car and went to Tesco instead. Looked for it and found a different brand. Brought it home and tried.. blleerrrgghhhh!!! It taste so bad. Not like the one I had before. So, today I drove myself again to Giant to get the one I like. Hahahaha.. Hubby doesn't know about this one yet. I can bet he would be disappointed with my action. Well, just can't help it can I?? Heh!!

Pre-delivery Complication

Just wanna share my pre-delivery complication. Courtesy of Sha' s blog.

I. Where to deliver <-- this one is settled. heh.. sorry Sha!
Fortunately for me, the hospital i went to last time just moved a few blocks away. So, I'm still seeing the same doctors (no specific doctor for me) from now known as Hospital Bersalin Razif. Even though some people might have heard of a case involving Dato Dr Razif last few years, I still believe it could've have happened in any hospital. As for the charges, during Imran's delivery, Dato Dr Razif was the one operating. He did 2 surgeries at one go which should not have been done in the first place. But due to some complication which I do not really understand, it had to be done there and then. With 2 surgeries, medications and 4 nights of ward, if I'm not mistaken the total was around RM4k++. Definitely not more than RM5k. I know, I know some people might think it's expensive. But believe me, I have heard far more ridiculous charges than this.

II. Baby Names
Have shortlisted names. but still yet to make the final decision. We don't have any special name to carry. So, kinda tough to make choices. Heh!

III. Normal? Caesarean? Double stitches???
This particular topic I have to agree the most scary of all. I do not want to go through another surgery. The aftermath is not something you look forward to. I can't compare the after effect of a normal birth, but I believe it's a lot less painful. The doctors told me, there's a good chance for normal delivery. But I had to be warned though, if any complication, and they really meant ANY complication occurred, straight to the operation room I go. So far the problem that I had during last delivery has not been and issue. But right now it's a new issue for this one. Last 2 check-ups revealed baby in 1. breech position(songsang) , 2. tranverse lie(melintang). Baby is still active, so I'm praying that as delivery time approaches, she will get to the right position. Why? Due to the fact my previous was C-section, there's be no other choice but to go for it this time. My mom told me to relax.This is normal. But I can't get rid of the past which I have made my mother go through during labour. The word 'payback time' kept haunting me. HAHAHA!!!

IV. Sleeping Arrangements
Hahahaha.. this is a funny one. My complication for this one is we only have one room for ourselves. Me, hubby, Imran and the new baby. As at now, yes, Imran is sharing bed with us. Later part, most probably there'll be another single bed but it'll be for me and the baby. Hopefully Imran won't be doing his stunt of jumping on top of me like he did the last time we tried to separate him. You still have time Sha. Me? I got like 2 months to go to. We'll just cope with any possibilities as we go.