Birth date dilemma

It has been quite some time since I updated this blog. Like i said, it's not that easy to actually write something for other people to read.

Anyway, went for the usual check-up this morning and kinda expected the news that my precious baby is still in transverse lie position. Since I am already 35 weeks pregnant AND the space is no longer that big anymore for the baby to move about, chances for her to turn to a normal position is quite thin. There goes my chance for normal birth. Due to the fact that I had already went for c-sec for my previous child, the doctor informed me they will not wait until the full term of 40 weeks for labour. Reason given was the risk of the previous scar being overstretch. Don't know if that's the right term but definitely the easiest to explain and understood by me. Hah! So, he told me that on the next check-up, two weeks from now (37th week) if the baby is still in transverse, we would have to pick a date for c-sec. Her suggestion was on the 38th week which falls on 21st of August.

Now, my dilemma is that my mother in-law as well as my father have given me the idea of having the same birthday for my son and the new baby, which falls on 16th of August. I have not discuss this with hubby yet. Kinda too early to decide anything. Still got two more weeks to go!

What do you think?

The Choice

Extract from Og Mandino's The Choice

The key is choice. You have options. You need not spend your life wallowing in failure, ignorance, grief, poverty, shame, and self-pity. But, hold on! If this is true, then why are so many of us apparently elected to live in the manner? The answer is obvious. Those who live in unhappy failure have never exercised their options for a better life because they have never been aware that they had any choices. So many of us spend our lives searching for happiness. Like children hunting Easter eggs we dash hither and yon hoping to discover some mystical bluebird. Life would be so different, we sigh, if only we were happy. And so, one hurries home to be happy and another flees home to be happy. One is getting married to be happy and another is getting divorced to be happy. One takes expensive cruises to be happy and another labours overtime to be happy. Endless search. Wasted years. Madness. Always the moon is out of reach, the fruit not quite ripe, the wine too dry. Shadows. Tears. Our pillows know the truth.

The craving for 'cencaluk'

God..!! I feel like a tonne in weight. Tummy's not so big but the difficulty of carrying myself to point A to point B is not and easy task anymore. Especially with a quite demanding toddler asking for attention every second. Thank you for grandparents. Hahaha... To those who have this kind of intervention please admit to at least to yourselves that sometimes you're just glad they're there to spoil the grandkids. Heh!

Lately it's kinda easy to lose temper. Some call it pregnancy blues, as for me it's a combination of my own temper which I have been trying so hard to control all these years plus the neglect which I've been feeling right now. I was hoping that during this last few weeks of pregnancy, hubby would be more sensitive to my needs. Unfortunately something came up which turned his attention towards something else. Can't blame him though. I've got myself to blame anyway. Seriously I can't blame my husband for being ignorant. There are some things that husband just don't get it. Like the idea of craving for things.

This week I found out that I crave for 'cencaluk'. Just one pinch once a day. Oh dear! It was not easy for hubby. He can't even stand the smell. Let alone the taste. Of course I told him not to even think of tasting it. He doesn't have to. It started when my staff bought the damn thing at had it for lunch. When I came to inspect the stuff they put on the table. That's it! I opened the bottle and it became an appetizer. Just had to try it. I have never ever tried 'cencaluk' before. Please note I did not go out and buy it yet due to the supply from my staff. But once the supply has run out, I told hubby I have to buy and replace the one I have eaten. He gave me this one look of disapproving my action. He thought once the supply is gone I would be okay and just ignore the craving. Honestly, I thought so too. But I was soooo wrong. After waiting for 2 days, I just can't stand it anymore. So last night, I was moody because hubby wouldn't make a quick stop at Giant for me to get it. I just took off with my car and went to Tesco instead. Looked for it and found a different brand. Brought it home and tried.. blleerrrgghhhh!!! It taste so bad. Not like the one I had before. So, today I drove myself again to Giant to get the one I like. Hahahaha.. Hubby doesn't know about this one yet. I can bet he would be disappointed with my action. Well, just can't help it can I?? Heh!!

Pre-delivery Complication

Just wanna share my pre-delivery complication. Courtesy of Sha' s blog.

I. Where to deliver <-- this one is settled. heh.. sorry Sha!
Fortunately for me, the hospital i went to last time just moved a few blocks away. So, I'm still seeing the same doctors (no specific doctor for me) from now known as Hospital Bersalin Razif. Even though some people might have heard of a case involving Dato Dr Razif last few years, I still believe it could've have happened in any hospital. As for the charges, during Imran's delivery, Dato Dr Razif was the one operating. He did 2 surgeries at one go which should not have been done in the first place. But due to some complication which I do not really understand, it had to be done there and then. With 2 surgeries, medications and 4 nights of ward, if I'm not mistaken the total was around RM4k++. Definitely not more than RM5k. I know, I know some people might think it's expensive. But believe me, I have heard far more ridiculous charges than this.

II. Baby Names
Have shortlisted names. but still yet to make the final decision. We don't have any special name to carry. So, kinda tough to make choices. Heh!

III. Normal? Caesarean? Double stitches???
This particular topic I have to agree the most scary of all. I do not want to go through another surgery. The aftermath is not something you look forward to. I can't compare the after effect of a normal birth, but I believe it's a lot less painful. The doctors told me, there's a good chance for normal delivery. But I had to be warned though, if any complication, and they really meant ANY complication occurred, straight to the operation room I go. So far the problem that I had during last delivery has not been and issue. But right now it's a new issue for this one. Last 2 check-ups revealed baby in 1. breech position(songsang) , 2. tranverse lie(melintang). Baby is still active, so I'm praying that as delivery time approaches, she will get to the right position. Why? Due to the fact my previous was C-section, there's be no other choice but to go for it this time. My mom told me to relax.This is normal. But I can't get rid of the past which I have made my mother go through during labour. The word 'payback time' kept haunting me. HAHAHA!!!

IV. Sleeping Arrangements
Hahahaha.. this is a funny one. My complication for this one is we only have one room for ourselves. Me, hubby, Imran and the new baby. As at now, yes, Imran is sharing bed with us. Later part, most probably there'll be another single bed but it'll be for me and the baby. Hopefully Imran won't be doing his stunt of jumping on top of me like he did the last time we tried to separate him. You still have time Sha. Me? I got like 2 months to go to. We'll just cope with any possibilities as we go.

Another C-section...?

Last check-up got me into some kind of a health freak. Naaahhh.... Just the intake of plain water is more than usual and i tried to go out either shopping or anywhere as long as not 'home or the shop. Reason.. Blood pressure and urine test did not turn out so good. But that's not so interesting to me.
It's the baby's position that gave me a surprise. She's (yes, doc has confirmed it's 90% girl) upside down. Meaning if I were to give birth then, the feet will come out first. Hahaha.. seriously. I was in that exact position when my mom had to deliver. I simply refuse to turn around. Result.. C-section for my mom. Kesian.. Guess it's my turn now. Payback time huh baby girl? Heh!
Today, went for a follow-up check-up. Every fortnight. Baby's position, horizontal. Head on the right side with legs in the left side of my tummy. Huishh.. I swear she was turning around in my tummy but is that it?? Felt like she was having such a great time torturing from inside. Well, doc gave me an explaination which made sense. hehehe... Since tummy is quite big for her, she's having such a great time moving around in it that there's a possibility that she already made a whole turn and will keep doing that until it's time to see the outside world. I was like.. whaa..?? She's going to have fun inside while I'm making funny faces cuz all the movement will definitely make my face cringe...

FYI, my son was born through C-section due to some difficulties to get through the pain.. Haha, truth was I could no longer stand the pain that I begged hubby to sign off the surgery form. Turns out the were fibroids blocking the baby's path. According to hubby (doc showed the fibroids to him.. yep!) they were huge that the surgery of removing the fibroids had to be done there and then. That answers the nurses question of why the baby's head was still quite high in my tummy when it's already suppose to be on a delivery position. Not that made any sense to me at the time.. Hah!

90 days of maternity leave..

I wonder if I can request for 3 months maternity leave? You see, until the day I actually deliver this baby, I would have to go back and forth to the laundry shop and maintain good relationship with workers and ahndle any siatuation or whatsoeva that needs my attention. So I was wondering if it is applicable for me to request the maternity leave? Including the 40 days of confinement of course. The different is that I do not get paid because I have no income from my so-called 'job'.
Please be informed that the person I have to request this leave is my husband or better known as the bigger boss of ExT Laundry. Har Har Har......