I used to...

be able to sleep late and wake up early without worrying what time i will some rest during the day. But now, I have to make sure I have enough sleep just to make sure I don't fall asleep while driving to work in the morning. Yes, I tend to be very sleepy while driving. Coffee sound so good but if I were to have coffee before I go to work, I have to make time for toilet break. Hahahaa...
Anyway, what can I share about my workplace? Other than the fact I drag myself to work on a daily basis. That's right. I hate my workplace. I don't hate the job. Somehow the place and the environment doesn't really motivates me to work harder than I should. Guess I need to figure out a way for me to inspire myself. Of course some some cute guys would definitely help to boost that. Hehehe... Guess, when you are so used to work in a team who will give you 101% of support, it's not easy to see a very divided team mates who has their own share of work. Too add salt to the wound, our so called boss is not exactly a very inspiring person. I thought someone with experience would be mature enough to realized threat does not give you the result you want. Sending news on salary cut and unemployment statistics doesn't help in boosting your team to work harder. It just gives you the opposite. I just can't believe how shallow some people can be nowadays.
Yikes! It's midnight. I have to iron my clothes and get myself ready to go to bed. Need to wake early tomorrow. No, I'm not going to work early because I want to. But I have to sneak out of the house before Hani gets up. The things you do just so your kids start their day in a better mood than yours.

Batte of the fittest

I'm battling with myself actually. Trying hard to get use as a working mother of two very unpredictable kiddos. I know it's going to be hard. But not to the extend I lost all my sixth sense to my overwhelming exhaustion upon arriving home from the office.
Today we decided to go to TESCO hypermarket to buy groceries and things for Halimah. Since Hubby went home earlier, he went to MIL's place to pick them up. And I went straight home and took a shower. Asked whether she wanted to tag along and waited for her to get ready. Once we got to the car, I realized I didn't pack any diapers nor supplies for Imran and Hani. Since it should be a quick one, I just shrug it of and went on. BIG MISTAKE!!!!
Arrived TESCO, the moment I stepped onto the escalator, Hani screamed. I was stunned. We tried to calm her down when all of a sudden Hubby thought of checking her diaper. True enough she pooped. To make matters worse, it has been there for quite some time that she screamed because her bottom was stinging her. I wanted to scream at someone. But who else should I get angry other than myself. I should've been able to detect the smell. I always did. It broke my heart to hear her cry when I wash cleaning her in the washroom. I had to carry her throughout the shopping ordeal because she was in pain. Of course the fact that she's not wearing diapers just scared Hubby. Hahaha...
I can't believe how I can be so ignorant towards my kids nowadays. I do kiss them every morning before I leave. And do hug them when I see them after work. But the fact that I did not detect anything was wrong with them is definitely alarming. I really need to get myself on track my Imran and Hani. Especially Hani. It seems that she's rejecting the idea of having a maid in the house. She felt abandoned at some point. I just hope this phase will go away and eventually realize that I'm not leaving her with a stranger. Just a new addition to the family.
As for Imran, he's having a time of his life. Another person to bully and turn to when Hubby wants to 'cubit' him for misbehaving.

So here it goes...

I have an Indonesian maid. She's from Jawa Timur. A 35-year old lady with 5 kids. Age range from 16 to 2 years old. She has been here for a year plus. Don't really know what happened to her previous employer though. MIL said it was something about she had been treated badly by the wife. Nobody can clarify that anyway. So just have to take her words for it.
Anyway, yesterday her probation starts. As of now, we're sending her together with the kids to MIL. MIL will be screening her for us. Since the main reason to get a maid was for someone to take care of the kids. I'm not too keen on the idea of leaving the kids alone with her. Especially we found out Hani is kinda scared of her. I wonder if somehow Hani feels that she's being abandoned by me and MIL when she saw the maid. You can never tell with kids. Somehow they have such an incredible sense that we would never figure out. I just hope this will be a temporary phase. MIL has been having trouble keeping both Imran and Hani in control. They have already started to bully each other. It won't be long when they'll gang up to bully the others.
As for the maid, she's okay. It's still too early to tell. I really hope I don't have to send anyone back but the decision is not mine to call. It's up to my kids. If either one of them doesn't feel comfortable with her, I might want to try out playschool for Imran. Where the heck can I found one within walking distance from MIL's place?
Oh by the way, our maid's name is Halimah. She calls me, IBU and Hubby, BAPAK. I'm wondering how confused will my kids be when they hear BIBIK calling me with the same call name as theirs. Hmm... should I change to Mom instead? Hahaha!

Just watch your back Sweetie

I'm posting this post from Ipoh. That's right. I had to take EL even though I have yet to get my entitlement for annual leave. For one reason and one reason only. Family comes first. It begins with such a beautiful start in the morning....

Hubby turns 3-0 yesterday and we had planned to have family dinner. Since I'll be attending orientation and training I can get off work early. But one phone call from my mom changed everything! My dad was warded to CH hospital. For your information my dad has been in and out hospitals for his heart condition. Nothing serious. Just a mild heart attack and few days of bed rest and medication. So neither mom nor my sister who was with him expected anything worse could happen.

Now, my mom is in KL for a convention. And she is still waiting for her relocation to CH. So she is still in Jengka whilst my sister is accompanying my dad in CH. Since we did not expect anything serious, my mom decided to visit him on the weekends. Unfortunately, sister informed me, CH had decided to send dad to GH in Ipoh because his condition just got worse.

At this point, my mom was already having a panic attack. This is her other half we're talking about. Dad went to the CH hospital for a his cough but ended up with severe heart attack. What the he**???!!!! He was only having the usual mild attack and ended up in an ambulance to see a specialist!! To make things worse, my sister was unable to get hold of my mom and she got yelled for not informing mom immediately.

I called my supervisor and informed her that I'll heading to Ipoh and won't be coming to work. Bless her angel soul! Picked up my brother so he'll take mom's car from the hotel. Got my mom and went straight to Ipoh. Arrived in the middle of the night. Dad was sound asleep. Got ourselves checked-in into a nearby hotel and rest for the night.

And today my mom got the whole story from yesterday. The truth was the nurses and doctors in CH has given my dad not only the wrong medication, but an overdose as well!!!! He had rashes all over his body. Body temperature went down and he was shivering. Thank God for their immediate decision to send to a specialist even though with being such an idiot for not listening to my dad in the first place! Ipoh's doctor immediately recognise his condition as allergic reaction instead of the severe heart attack as written on his report. My mom is planning to sue the hospital for malpractice! But she got mellowed. Instead she just wanted to give them a piece of her mind. As of now, Ipoh's doctor is planning to inform IJN to schedule for dad's triple bypass soon.

Thank you for everyone who has helped my family when needed! As for those people who are resposible for sending my dad off for a lousy trip down the hill, watch your back, Sweeties!! Because mom is coming to town!!

Let's pray....

I have never said that being a working mom is easy. Neither is a stay at home mom. Both had their own bittersweet experience that only a mother can feel. And just like a fingerprint, no mother could ever have exact same feeling towards their own experience.
After 3 weeks of working, it is still too early for me to experience the exhaustion of coming home to continue with house chores. Yes, I still cook dinner. With good planning, I don't have to wait to defrost my poultry. Hubby took care of the dirty laundry while I'll be the one enjoying my favourite show on TV folding them. Somehow we take our own share of cleaning up the house. Which doesn't really happened that often. But I'm glad that everything is going pretty well for now. Though I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that I left my kids to my in-laws. They're not exactly the right person you'd want to leave a very vocal kid who would just scream if he wants something. Yes, I'm that bad of a mother. I don't let them scream at my house but somehow manage to let them off at my in-laws. Well.... Seems Hubby had the same problem too with them.
Enough about that...Let's get really serious now...
Last Saturday, we were shopping for some shrubs to start of my so-called garden, when we got a call from MIL informing us that Hubby's aunt was in the hospital with head injury. She was a victim of snatch theft! We decided to drop by the hospital since we were already on the road. Here I was thinking it was an injury caused by a fall. Boy I could not be more wrong!!! The truth was she was ambushed (MIL used that term) and got hit in the head with something very hard that I believe gave a mild concussion. By the we saw her head was covered and I could see dried blood on the sheet below her head. This happened in PJ. In public!! Well, most of these incidents do happen in broad daylight with people around. Somehow I felt ridiculous at how these scumbags can actually get away with their evil way of getting what the want. Trust me when I say they are not after your cash. It's something more important. Your identity! You think identity theft only happens in foreign country? Think again!!!
As for the person responsible for what happen to this very sweet lady. I curse you!!! You hear me??!! What goes around will come around. And I pray that you get the most just punishment for your evil scheme to survive. People live not to bring misery to this world, but somehow human does not comply with just being happy. Some idiots get their adrenalin rush by causing pain to people. And it is not my responsibility to rationale these behavior. To me... you are at the scumbags who will rot in hell or better yet, get killed in the act. Either way, it doesn't end well for you!
So now.. I pray.....

It's past midnight...

and I am still awake.. I'm sleepy but awake..
Living in a neighborhood where you are the minority certainly has paid it's toll on us. Ever since New year we have been bombarded with fireworks war. That house trying to outdo this house is no longer an expression. It a way of life. They are trying very hard to outdo each others flashy and loud fire crackers that none of them even gave a slightest thought of people with babies and children who get scared easily by extra loud exploding sound. Alhamdulillah my kids managed to sleep soundly even when the fireworks are lit just right in front of our house. I'm not talking about those firecrackers we played during Ramadhan and Eidufiltri. I'm talking about gigantic fireworks.
I thought fireworks and firecrackers has been illegal for years. So how did these people got hold of the license or permission to blow up these fancy bombs? I just want my peaceful night back!!! I have to get up early and brace through idiots on wheels!!!!!

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Once I caught a fish alive...

Imran has been singing lots of kids as well as adult songs. But it took me quite a while to figure out which song he's trying to sing. Especially when he was enjoying himself singing 'So What by Pink'. I could opnly make out the 'So, so what.. blablabl... rockstar' As for Hani she tries very hard to say the words, but could only come up with.. 'oohh.. oohh..' Good enough for me.
Last weekend we spent 2 nights at A Famosa Resorts in Melaka. Overall the security was good but the service? Bad!! Hubby's aunt wanted to have late lunch at their clubhouse cafe and ended up waited half an hour for nothing! No apology or anything that resembles their regret but somehow came up with an arrogant excuse of they only have one kitchen to serve 2 restaurants and they have members to serve. Well, they were in for a shock because Hubby's aunty just gave them one look and said ' That's not my problem! I ordered 1 Mee Curry and 2 plates of fired rice. And you came with 1 mee curry and 1 fried rice. If you can't handle that simple order then maybe you should re consider the tasks. Just because we're not one for your club members doesn't mean we're not paying customers!' That's not her exat words.. but how I wish it is. She did bambooed them for the bad service.
Durign the stay we decided to go for the Safari World, but had it cancelled due to drizzling rain. However we ended up in the 4-feet deep swimming pool in the rain! Hahah.. Oh, I forgot to mention we stayed in one of the villas which provided a not-so private pool. Imagine how happy the kids were when they saw the pool right beside the car porch. Imran's cousin was cheeky enough to wonder why can't they spent swimming in the pool until night time? Surrounded with 6 kids below 6 was priceless...
Sad to say even the cowboy world trip had to be canceled. It didn't matter though. They already planned to get up early to have the first dip in the pool. Ad this time Imran has finally found the courage to get into the pool. He got himself those round floaties and started to paddle all around the pool Guess he was phobic of not being able to keep his face out of the water with his arm-floaties.
I'll see if I can post some photos of the trip. Right now I have to wake Hubby up becasue we have to go out for grocery shopping. I hope I can persuade him to do some window shopping but he got his sinus problem again. So not so sure whether he would be in his usual grumpy mood or the good side. Hahaha.. Either way, after the long and enlightening chat with a someone, I have come to conclusion to stop being jelous of others happiness. Just be happy with what I already and about to have. Amin.....