Awaiting new year...

I'm blogging while listening carefully to my kids in the shower. Multitasking is the most important skill as a mother. Juggling 2 or 3 tasks is normal. A mother should be able to juggle about 5 to 7 tasks. The more the children the more your multitasking ability will have to develop.
I wanted to write a post before new year but since I just got a call requesting me to send in a document ASAP... I have to delay this for later...
In case I didn't get the chance to update...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Bila ada duit...

Basically translated to "When money permits..."
Whenever I came across friends sharing their holiday journey, I asked myself, why can't I have that. Where has all Hubby's money gone to at the end of the month that we can barely have some for a family vacation? Then I remembered the conversation we had on our way back from BJ. Turns out we don't have the extra cash because we spent a lot on huge purchase like our home, our Hilux, ours and kids insurances.. etc, which accumulated to almost 70% of our monthly income. His sole income. The rest of the money goes to bills, groceries, shopping if needed. Basically we spent a lot for things now so that we can retire rich! Hahaha...
As for family vacations, every year we have PD trip during CNY. And now we can add trips to CH for the next 3 years. Even though Hani has yet to have her own passports, I'm pretty sure we would be happy even if she doesn't have one. Besides, she's too young to remember any trip we make. Heheh..
As far as the holidays are concern, I don't think it's that important if we ended up with holes in our pockets. It is supposed to be a holiday, a break from work. But why would anyone want to come home with huge debt in their accounts? Hahaha.. I know some people who actually planned these holidays and took quite an amount of loan for it. But I salute those who can actually go for trips and make sure everyone have fun with limited RMs being spent. Wonder if I can do that for mine in the future.
Bila ade duit kan sayang? We'll enjoy ourselves like no one's business and brag about it. Hahaha.... And this is a promise... not the bragging part of course.

Independent girl

Hani has now declared herself to be an independent little girl. She wants to do everything by herself. Problem is, she's only 16 months old. She wants to dress herself, feed herself and if she can, she even wants to clean after herself on her own.

Today we went for a relatives wedding reception. She insist on feeding herself. I felt so guilty for the waiters and waitresses for the aftermath. There were more rice on the floor and table rather than the ones going into her cute little tummy. I think... Whenever I tried to feed her, she shook her head so hard and started screaming.. "NANAK!!!!" I know it seems funny to everyone, but when you kept brushing off rice on your dress and hers, I think you would definitely get irritated at some point. There was no baby chair available, and I had to sit her on my lap and eat, hence the hideous mess we created. Hehehe..
Then again the same situation happens at the restaurant at dinner time. The only different, she's sitting in a baby chair. No mess on my part but her uncle got rice stuck to his pants. She'll be the first one to eat and the last one to finish. The first because she'll start screaming for the food as if she has not eaten for days. And the last one to finish because she enjoyed the freedom of feeding herself. Such a big girl she is. Hahaha..
One thing though, she hates the mess she has created. She insists on cleaning up after that. Me being the ignorant guest and customer just brush off the request and left the scene. Hahaha... Hani will point to the mess and says... "O'oh!" And starts looking for tissues or towels. She can even demand that I help her look for one. Hahaha... What a girl!
And yes, she does clean up after her own mess at home. That's why our tissue box can be empty within 2 days time. I should start teaching her to use cloth instead or we'll run out of trees by the time she can say "Clean-up Time!"

Happy Holidays to All!

Just had a very interesting conversation with my neighbour regarding Christmas. I feel like sharing but I don't really want to upset or offend anyone due to the sensitive issues it could bring.
Anyway, I'm still awake waiting for laundry. Pack our luggage for one-night stay in Jengka. It'll take me at least a couple of hours to make sure everything is in. Hehe.. I can't imagine how my cousin dealt with packing with 4 kids. She must've started packing days ahead. Huhuhu.... Just our luck, our ever so loyal Hilux has gotten into a trouble of its own. As of now, Hubby decided to borrow his mom's car. Because cancelling the trip is not an option. I can't even begin to imagine what my mom would think once I gave her the reason for not going back.
So, I'll be spending Christmas holiday in Jengka and back to Klang on friday. Hubby couldn't take any leave. Then 2 wedding on the weekend. But I have only one thing in mind. I want to see babies!!! Hahaha.... I really hope we have the time for baby visits after the wedding.
Have a good holiday everyone!!!

Have you no shame?

Yesterday, my loyal brother told me how my mom has been babbling and ranting how her eldest daughter (me) has been telling her that she'll be back to help clearing some of the junks in the house to ease up the moving process. So, I decided to give her a call to tell her how sorry I am. Huhuhu... But instead I got this.
Not so recently, my parents have been facing trouble with their tenant. This family have been staying at our house in KB for almost 5 years. I think. I remember how he begged my mom to let them stay because apparently he has fallen in love with the house. Even when my mom insisted that the house is not for rent, he kept pushing for it. His last effort? Went to our neighbour for the spare keys and took it from her. I was shocked and wanted to intervene but my father (who has the kindest heart) told me it's going to be alright. The first few months the rental came in every month. Then once in few months time. Once as in just one month payment even though there are arrears of 4 months. Then.. no money came in. This has been going for years.
And now, since my parents are moving to CH and will be staying in a fully-furnished house, they have decided to send the current furniture back home. Dad has given them evacuation notice since last month, and found out that they have no intention to move and just informed that they're ready to make room for mom's things to arrive. I can imagine how pissed off my mom was when she heard the news. She called and got the wife. She gave her a piece of her mind and told them to get out of the house or else! Hahaha... The wife tried to sweet talk mom by telling that they don't have a place to go, bla bla bla.... Heard that the wife was on wheelchair. Her attempt to get her handbag from the snatch thief gone bad. Ended up with broken legs and arm. But that was quite some time ago.
I know it seems so cruel to kick them out of the house with their situation. But they have never respected any of my parents requests. They have not only stop paying rental, but my mom have been telling them to move out since last year!!! Way before the snatch happened. Dad wants to do major renovation to the house. And has been putting it off because of these.. I don't know what to label them. Shameless people? The husband has been avoiding calls. He claimed that business has not been doing very well hence the late payment. What late payment? You have not been paying rent for the last 3 years!!!! If you can't afford to pay then get out!!!

FYI: The rental is RM300 a month for a kampung style bungalow with a front yard that can fit a badminton court.

Can we have another baby, Honey?

This month I have been getting good news after another from friends. If it's not a wedding, it's the arrival of babies. Unfortunately I have yet to make time for a visit. Been nagged by my mom to go back to Jengka. She wants me to take my junks from her place. Hahaha... Anyway, back to the main topic. I have yet to see the newborns but already have this mixed feeling of when should I be having another baby. At doctor's advice I should take at least a 2-year rest. Initially I told Hubby I'm giving myself 3 years. But now, I'm not too sure I can wait that long.
Usually ladies with my current condition does not have what doctors considered a normal menstrual cycle. As for me, I got my cycle right after the confinement period. Both with Imran and Hani. And I never missed it. Not once. So the family planning part is quite easy. Until I forgot my ovulation day, then there could be unplaned pregnancy. Huhuhu... I wanted to get Implanon and have asked doctors for advice. It's the one most recommended for me. But I decided not to. Too scared. I can't bear the thought of having a foreign object under your skin. Since all contraceptive product for women will disturb the cycle, I felt 100% sure of not taking any. Hahaha..
But I'm in a somewhat dangerous situation. I want to have another child. Though Hubby's not too keen to have one right now. I can play to forgeting card and just call it an accident. But I won't. I want to have more children but I don't have to trick Hubby. It ain't right. Hahaha... Maybe after Hani turns 3. At least I got 2 helpers to bid as and when I want to.Both of them have been very helpful nowadays. Especially when I can't reach the TV remote.
So Honey... should we wait another year?

L.A.Z.Y...??

I have so many things to write but once I sat my big asset in front of this very loyal machine, I got distracted by all the worldly attractions. Haha.. Mainly the online games. And of course blog-hopping...
Anyway, today was kind of a fruitful day. After a wedding reception in Rawang, we made a stop to Sungai Buloh. For those into gardening would definitely know the attraction. Hihihi... We ended up with two trees. I have no idea what is the exact name for it but I used to call it 'Pokok Pisang Kipas'. Haha... It has been an argument on whether it's a palm or banana tree. Neither Hubby nor me has ever been bothered to look up for the name or it's actual type. Somehow we just managed to totally drop the subject and leave it be whatever we wanted it to be.
We also purchased a few stone-slaps for the back of our house. We have about 5 feet unused space which normally homeowners would use to extend their kitchen but we have decided to do just yet. So I asked Hubby if we could clear up the space so I can start my herb garden project. Kind of a wishful thinking but I would like to give it a try. Hopefully I can train my thumbs to be green. Hahahaha!!

I woke up in the middle of the night...

and got myself the I'm-a-bad-mother-panic-attack. All of the sudden my heart hurt so much with this guilt feeling of whatever that I have done wrong to my kids. Everything flashes through my mind. The day I dropped Hani, scolded Imran for not refusing to eat, scream at Hani for hitting her big brother (she just turned one!) and everything that has the same element of scolding smacking and late development. (which does not include the late teeth development)
Anyway, I do have this kind of panic attack some times before. But not in the middle of my beauty sleep. My unconscious mind must be telling me something. Have I missed something? Today I got to know that my friends are sending their kids to kindergarten at the age of four. I personally wanted to send Imran when he turns 5. Since some school teachers advised me to do so. Even my mother told me not to send off Imran for academic learning at a very early age.
Am I jealous of what other kids can do academically? Of course I am. My son can barely writes but he has had a very good attempt in doing so. He can recognize all the alphabets and numbers but not words. And obviously he doesn't do sums. But I'm still proud of him. Because I have never forced him to any of this. But when I see kids who are able to do simple word reading and additions, it made me wonder have I missed something?
When I was wandering around the children section at Borders, The Curve (while waiting for a friend getting dental check-up), I saw few kids reading with their parents. And I see Imran running all over the place with excitement and Hani rearranging the books on the shelves. The two of them were really excited seeing all the books but unfortunately all for the wrong reason. Hahaha.... Somehow it did give some satisfaction seeing how happy they are in a bookstore. Though I wish I could bring them to library. Wishful thinking I guess. Had to wait for another, let's see.. 3 years? Huhuhu.....
I know I've been quite ambitious on preparing Imran to write and read. To me he's too young to be burden with early learning materials. But the competition out there has made me wonder should I sent him for and early education? Thanks to Allah, Hubby agrees with me on the too young subject. He said just send to him to kindergarten for socializing and getting the idea of paying attention and listening to orders. and somehow I think in one way we need to detach him from me. And sending him off to kindergarten is the next best thing after MIL.
Do I feel guilty leaving him after 3 whole years taking care of him 24/7? Absolutely! People might think I'm cold-hearted mom who didn't shed any tears when Hani was wailing and screaming when her hand was being poked for IV. But I know I can be strong. Praise to Allah. Now I;m being ridiculous. MIL once said about how she worries sometime about her sons. As I have told her several times, it doesn't matter how old your children are, whether they have turned grandparents themselves, they will always be your children. I have no idea how it feel to let go of your children but I do know that it's not easy to see them growing up. Especially when you realized something is amiss.
Please Allah, let me do everything I can to protect and nourish my children. Amin....

The day I got one year older....

is the day Imran first movie at the cinema! Wuhoooo!!! He enjoyed every second of it.
Yesterday Hubby decided it's time for a movie at the cinema. Since we're just 5 minutes away from it. Hehehe... I wanted to watch Madagascar 2. Unfortunately the showtime was way too late and very inappropriate for the kids. So we went for Bolt instead. I can't remember the last movie I watched because that happened more than 3 years ago! Huhuhuhu..
Anyway, while I was worried about Imran's reaction, I completely forgotten about Hani's. Since I will be holding Hani, we thought it wouldn't be a problem. Boy it could not be more wrong! The moment we stepped into the room, Hani froze. Apparently dark places and loud noises does come easy to her. Hahaha.. And this is the girl who could sleep soundly while mummy vacuuming the room. Haiyak! As soon as the movie started, she started to wriggle her body to show how uncomfortable she was. Hubby took her and brought her outside. I was enjoying the first quarter of the movie when I felt guilty ad decided to take turns.
Result? I missed half of the movie because Hani refused to go back inside. I had to wait until she was really sleepy and start to sweet talk her and bribe with BF. Sneaky me? Naahh... Fortunately I went in time for the climax. The movie of course. Hahaha... I had forgotten how loud the sound system can be in a movie theatre. It was deafening!!! I totally understand why Hani was miserable. Wait a minute? Did I just use 'totally'? Yikes! I really need to buff up on my vocab!
Finally Hani fell asleep on my lap. Imran was definitely enjoying his first time at the cinema. Hubby was having a good time. And the birthday lady? Well, there wasn't any candle blowing moment or cakes. Nor do I get any present! Huhuh... But I am just happy that Hubby chose this day to have family movie time! Thank you sweetheart, maybe on your birthday we can watch the full movie without the dramas. Provided there's a good PG13 movies. Hahaha....

Hani oh.. Hani

She is currently obsessed with David Archuleta's song Crush. She can actually start to throw tantrums if I change the channel when the clip is playing on TV. Not to mention playing it on youtube just for the sake of distracting her. She'll starts by squirming he body in a way you would understand how angry she is. Then uses her voice to elaborate more on her frustration. Huhuh...

And here's another activity she loves to do....

IMRAN!!!!

About half an hour ago, I heard a loud thump in my closet, followed by Imran screaming. Went to check and saw this 6-chests MALM drawer has fallen with its content all over him. I wanted to scream out of panic because I was thinking the worse. Lift up the stupid drawer and surprisingly Imran got up and went out of the way. I was like.. okay, no broken bones. Let's see... I kept asking him, do you feel pain? (stupid question, I know) Where's the pain? And my boy kept saying his legs and his back but he was definitely not crying because of the pain. He was crying because he did something wrong and afraid of what I might do to punish him. I can assure everyone that I definitely did not let out my wrath when I found out he was actually using the drawers to climb to the top. Even though I have told him not to when caught him doing it several times before. I just pray that this will be his last try to repeat test his climbing skills.
Oh, Imran got away with a little scratch on his back. What a close call.

(picture courtesy of www.ikea.com)

How do you deal...

with people giving you advices which you know perfectly well does not really suits your belief?
I believe that my children will be alright even though they have yet to talk properly, potty-trained and most important is the part where it has been quite an issue for me personally. To get him to behaved in public. Heheh..
Truth be told, I know Imran can be a handful sometimes, especially when he's bored. And when he throws tantrums, that's just about it. He just won't give in. Especially when we're going out either window shopping or grocery shopping. His wailing would definitely drive strangers crazy and start giving me the what-kind-of-a-mother-are-you look? I don't blame them. Seriously, I don't. Lucky me though, Imran often scream because he's bored. Not because his demands were ignored. He'll start of saying he's sleepy and wants to take stroller ride. Even though Hani has already occupied and sleeping soundly in it, we will quickly give in because no one wants to carry Imran. Haha.. poor boy! But what happened when we forgot to bring the ever so loyal stroller? That's when war occurs.
My mom has been nagging about potty-training Imran. She brag about how she trained me and my siblings to be diaper less by the age of 2. Who doesn't want their child to be rid of diaper? But I surely not going to push Imran to do something he doesn't understand. Honestly, I'm having trouble teaching him what 'kencing'(pee) is. When I put him on the toilet to pee. He kept saying 'takde kencing! takde kencing' (there's no pee! there's no pee!). Even if I kept him for quite sometime, there was still no pee. I remember when we had to collect his urine during a check-up for his high fever, it took us around 2 hours to get it. He really knows how to hold his pee that I can say. When a mother shared how it took her 4 months to trained his son. I know I'm alright. I'm definitely still a good mother. Hahaha...
Another issue is, kindergarten. For heaven's sake, Imran is just 3++ years old. I'm proud to say he can recognize alphabets and numbers. He can even write some of them. And it didn't stress me one bit to get him to sit down and write. Not once. I did try to get him to sit and write sometimes but he gets bored quickly. Never force. Just ask. Has yet to teach him sums. Hahaha.. There's nothing wrong with early education. But not to the extend they have to worry about exams at a very young age. For your information, he has starts to recognize arabic letters. How about that? Hehehe..
So please people, just let it go. As long as Hubby agress with my method of raising our children, I highly appreciate all the advice but try not to question why I don't do it the way you see fit. Because as far as I know, Hubby and I are still their parents.

I love you Hubby!!

I got my dressing table!! At last... hehehe...
Hubby being such a very good handyman has put up the EXPIDIT (I think) rack bought from IKEA to make a new dressing table for us. He also install the mirror which came free with the walk-in closet we had assembled few months back. Finally! Hehehe
Now all I have to do is find whatever I can to fill up the empty space.

All grown up

It's my dad's birthday today. 2nd of December. I know someone has the same birth date as him. My best friend's son. Hehehe... Huge age gap there.
Let's see... today my dad turns... hmm.. 55 this year. supposedly retiring next year but with the sudden promotion plus transfer, he has another 3 years to go. I was wondering when he's going to stop working for good. For someone like Dad, he would definitely be restless if he's not working. I'm not sure about the money though. I knew he has savings, but according to Sis, his money has been drained out but that's just a speculation. She just happens to see the statement of his bank accounts. Maybe I should ask her which bank she saw? Hahaha...
Everyone has problems. It's a matter of how they deal with them. Run away or just keep your head up and settle them. Unfortunately there are those people who tends to get someone to settle the problems for them. Especially when it comes to money. I can understand how people can have bad financial situation at one point. But it just pisses me off when they expect someone else to come to the rescue. I'm not talking about newlyweds or just become parents kind of situation. I'm talking about a family whose kids are all grown up. Living in their own house, driving luxury cars where all kids have their own. For those who can have driver's license of course. And still have the guts to come to their relatives and ask for money due to the humongous debt on their shoulders. Why in God's name would anyone in their right mind would want to help these people? Oh wait... because it's the right thing to do.
Anyway, I'm not saying that we shouldn't help our relatives when they're in trouble. But shouldn't it be a lesson too for them? They would've thought of changing their lifestyle. But no! They went on living their life as if nothing has happened and went back to their debt. Don;t they watch Suze Ormon's Show on CNN? Till debt do us part in Discovery? Guess they don't. Those people ended up selling their house, cars and everything they have just to get out of debt and avoid declaring bankruptcy.
All grown up doesn't really mean all grown up. There are lots of grown up people acting as if they are bunch of youngsters where they can turn to someone for money. Specifically cash! Growing up takes a lot more than just adding numbers to your age.
I'm going out of the context already. Hahahaha...
Happy birthday Dad!! Don't worry about me! I am happily married to a grown up man. Though it's nice to know there's still a naughty kid inside that very young heart. Love you Dad!!

Not in the mood...

for blogging. I'm still active with blog hopping though. Just not in the mood to write.
As some of you might have known, I have been looking for a job and preparing myself to get back in the rat race. Up till now, no good news. There's no bad news either. After few weeks of looking, I only went for one interview. Hahaha... The first time I went for interview was 5 years ago. Imagine how nervous I was to go for it. I really thought I nailed the interview. The very nice lady even told me the position she wants to give me. Told me everything I need to know about the company. The benefits, the perks and wanted to get the director to come and have a word with me. Or maybe that was just an act. I don't know. I was really hoping tat was it. I'll get this job. They kept asking how soon can I start. And I need to make sure I'm not pregnant to through the medical check-up and all..
It has been one week. I need a job!! Hubby promised me a car once I got a job offer. Pleas call me with a job offer.... PLEASE!!!!

p/s: Geez Anis.. get a grip on yourself. It's just a job...