Recovery period?

I can't seem to find any words nor time to write on this blog. Though the purpose of purchasing notebook and smart phone was to be able to get in touch with friends via network instead of having a cuppa at Starbucks.

But ever since the tragedy, I find it even harder to write. Even though I looked as if I've fully recovered, there were times where I just feels like giving up everything and run off to just let all the pain subside. Unfortunately it doesn't. I'm still waiting for time to help me heal...

Dear God! I missed her so much. I missed our late evening conversation while I'm driving home from work. I missed to the argument we both have when it comes to obeying husband's request. (Her daughter does not bow to his commands... Hahaha) I missed the moment where we would dissed out our thought about my siblings. Sorry guys... Can't help it. I'm pretty sure you guys talked about me too.

Hubby offered himself in case I need someone to talk to. But it just doesn't work that way. I know he is supposedly my other half. But I need a mother's word of wisdom. No, it didn't work with my mom-in-law either. It just had to mom.

Some people might find it hard to understand how in the world did I get to be so close with my mom. trust me it was not easy. It took us 25 years to get able to talk about feelings. After I got married, she mellowed.... Before that she was a tough lady you just do not want to mess with. I felt like having a headmistress in the house. Hahaha.. Kidding!! Guess at one point she realized her girls are all grown up.

One thing I love about my mom, she does not sugar coat life. Her advice was no matter how hard life treat you, you still have a choice to be happy. Whatever happens, no matter what the consequences will be, the choice is yours to make. People can say whatever they want but it doesn't necessarily will do you any good. What matter's is what's your heart is saying, what's your conscious is hinting. Basically what does you guts telling you.

So right about now.. my whole body is giving me a sign to let them rest... Better log off now before I passed my bedtime.

Happy 3rd Birthday Rizqeen Hani

Happy 5th Birthday Imran Haris

11th of August - 1st Ramadhan

Below is just an excerpt from online news about the accident that took my mom's life. I'm still having a hard time to write. Perhaps another time...

KUALA LIPIS - Pengetua Sekolah Menengah Sultan Ahmad Shah, Cameron Highlands maut manakala suaminya yang memandu kenderaan terbabit cedera ringan apabila kereta yang mereka naiki terbabas ke bawah tebing.
Ketua Polis Daerah, Superitendan Abdul Razak Hassan berkata, mangsa, Nishah Ismail bersama suaminya, Ali Hussein Abdul Ghani yang juga Pegawai Pelajaran Daerah Cameron Highlands sedang dalam perjalanan ke Kuantan atas urusan kerja.
Menurutnya, kejadian terbabit berlaku kira-kira jam 4.30 petang kelmarin di Kilometer 27 Jalan Sungai Koyan - Cameron Highlands.
“Mangsa bersama suami menaiki kenderaan jenis CRV sedang dalam perjalanan dari Cameron Highlands ke Kuantan. Sampai di tempat kejadian, kereta yang dipandu suami mangsa hilang kawalan lalu terbabas ke kiri jalan dan masuk ke bawah tebing.
“Mangsa cedera parah di kepala dan meninggal dunia di tempat kejadian. Manakala suami mangsa hanya cedera ringan dan dirawat sebagai pesakit luar di Hospital Lipis,” katanya, di sini, kelmarin.
Abdul Razak berkata, mayat mangsa dibawa ke Hospital Lipis untuk dibedah siasat dan dituntut ahli keluarga sebelum dikebumikan di kampung asal arwah di Kota Bharu, Kelantan

Career vs Family

When I started working, it never cross my mind I would actually be starting a career. I just need a job and fast. Though it did occur to me I have to proof to them I am good at whatever task they throw to me. Why? Because I'm competing with kids 6 years my junior! If I don't perform, they might as well hire someone younger.

After one year of showing them what I'm capable off, I did get the reward I deserved. Perhaps more than what I thought I deserved. So my next target was to find a place closer to home so I can spend more time with my family. And I did mention this to my boss. So, when the half-year review came, she asked me again about my plans. Am I going to go through with it? Being the honest me, I told her it's not easy for me to decide. If I were to change, it would mean less pay and more work. Not necessarily more time at work but definitely more paperwork to handle. And I do have to sacrifice my Saturdays depends on which company I'm going to. So that is not really a good option. The perks is that the office is around 3-5 km from home. And I would end up with less pay than what I'm getting now. A lot less!

This is what she had to say. As a mother and a friend she understands my concern and what motivates me to consider those options. She too have 2 kids about the same age as mine. Being able to send them to school and play time is precious. But as a Manager, she has to be selfish. She doesn't want me to leave and would like to do anything she could to get me to stay. However that does not mean she will force me to stay. She will respect my decision either way. She has plans for me and that plans means more responsibility. Her plans goes more than 12 months for me.

I was a bit stunned and wasn't able to comment anything on that. But I assured her if I am leaving I will not leave her hanging. Besides there are others that are capable to do what I do. The one and only different is I am loud. Hahaha... Seriously. Most of my team mates are not vocal people. Unfortunately for her, I am. I would say what's on my mind and will admit to whatever mistakes I did. She said the most significant trade that I have is that I can take criticism positively. And to her that is one of the most important for someone to be able to further his or herself in an organization.

So now I am torn between family and career. I am still not looking for one. But if I were to be offered with a career plus good reward. Who am I to say no to that? No worries, I still have 2011 to think about it.

Family trip to none other than Port Dickson

Finally we managed to go for a family vacation last weekend. After all the brainstorming on where to go we decided on the nearest spot. Port Dickson, Negeri Sembilan. To add to the excitement, we're going there without hotel reservation. We're gonna take our chance on just walking in and book a room.

So after the parents-teacher session at Imran's kindy, we're off. The journey was fine because kids we're asleep all the way. We even had time to drive along before deciding to stay at Permaisuri Resorts. They only provide apartments. So we took the Studio Apartment and requested for extra mattress. The appearance and facility was okay but the cafe was terrible. There were flies everywhere. And the service was not that bad, given the fact that most of them are new at this. I can seem to trace any experienced staff but they were helpful. I'm giving them few months for the next visit.

Anyway, we had a blast at Blue Lagoon beach. Yes, that is the name on the place. The water was great and Imran had fun building his sandcastles. Would you believe me when I say I never build one myself? So this thing is new to me too! Hahaha... Hani also had a blast. Not once she made anyone miserable. Except when she wanted to sleep in our bed instead of hers. At one point the only regret I have is that Imran couldn't make new friends at the beach. The kids were not being friendly. And most of the people there were young couples fooling around with each other. And I do mean fooling around in the water.

Enough rambling. I can't wait for another family trip. Hope It'll be soon...

So much for moderation..

I just spent my money on a new phone. Not just a phone, but a smart phone. I don't really need one but somehow with all the temptation and persuasion from Hubby, I bought it. So now I own a smart phone which I have no idea how to use. Besides my current service provider doesn't really provide me with any data usage plan, so I might transfer to another and opt for smart plan. First, Hubby has to disown me from his supplementary plan. Haha..

The thought of buying a smart phone never occurs to me but somehow the urge to be able to browse without the hassle of opening my netbook is so tempting. Especially when Hubby kept looking to his phone whenever we went out. It's so frustrating. Oh wait, I think jealous is the more appropriate word to describe the feeling.

Oh well, what's done is done... I'm gonna have fun with my new gadget!

Book hunting failure

Ever since I read Trudi's Black Magician's Trilogy, I am obsessed with fantasy books. Currently hunting for children's book by Angie Sage. The Araminta Spookie's books. Right now she already published 5 books and waiting to finish number 6. So I still have time to start collecting. But I'm having a hard time to find the first book. Went to 3 different bookstore today. One of it got book 2,3 and 4. But I couldn't make myself jump books so I guess I have to wait for weekend.... Sigh... Hopefully Hubby will back me on this hunt.

Image taken from http://septimusheap.wordpress.com/araminta-spookie/

Big and Small

Today Imran brought back his bean sprouts from school. I didn't even know he was growing one until today. Guess I missed the story. Heheh..

Anyways, on the way back from Grandma's he was telling me on how he plant the small beans for this project. It went like this... more or less...

"Imran ambik small bean and buat macam ni. Lepas tu letak dalam cawan macam ni. Small aje bean dia. Tapi nanti dia grow. Kena letak air baru dia grow. Bean tu kecik aje macam tikus. Kalau besar macam giant. Macam orang besar. Orang tuh besar sampai cloud. Dia cucuk cloud lepas tu hujan."

Yes, it went from small bean to giant people poking the cloud. Apparently that's why it rains. Hahaha...

I love Toy Story 3!!!

I am so glad I queued for the tickets!! It was so worth it. Even Imran wasn't able to say anything throughout the movie. He would usually called out "Ibu, Ibu, Ibu, apa dia buat?" or "Abah, Abah, Abah, tengok ni.. Imran pun strong" much to my annoyance. Hehehe...

Anyway, I would definitely be collecting Toy Story DVD's. Or should we opt for Bluray? Is that okay Hun?

Black Magician's Trilogy - DONE

(Picture taken from Little Brown, Book Group)

I have finished reading these three books within one week. I am now looking forward to continue with The Traitor Spy Trilogy. Can't wait for the complete set to be publish.

Let's bring on the fantasy...

Back in the days as a student, I was into fantasy stories. A guy I was chatting with introduced me to the Wheel of Time books. Unfortunately I could only read until book 9. Kinda lost attention for the following book. And I were to continue reading, I would have to start reading back the previous books. Which will only happen if I can take a whole week off work and being a mother. Hahah!

Anyway, the other day we went to Tropicana Mall where Borders was having a sale. And I saw Black Magician trilogy. Unfortunately I found the second and third book. But the first one was not available. And I am determine to get the first book no matter what. And I finally got the book yesterday! At Popular book store, I could only get 15% off with member's card rather than the 50% off at Borders. I would've bought all three books if only I had enough cash. So the rest of the trilogy have to wait till my next pay.

I'm already halfway finish and can't wait for weekend to come so I can get the rest. It's kinda light for a fantasy story which suits me just fine. I can't bear to overuse my brain just for reading. Hahah...

Happy Father's Day

We went out to Subang's Empire Gallery to celebrate Hubby's day. Original plan was to eat at Chili's but the queue was long so we decided Italiannies instead. It was just Hubby's luck that they have promotion for free 1 main course for fathers. And so ended up with Classic Carbonara for the kids and Chicken Parmagiana for Hubby. And I chose Spinach and Artichoke Formaggio. Yes, I chose the starter for my meal, cuz most likely I would end up sharing the other meal. Hahah...

After dinner, we went for a stroll. There wasn't much to see since most of the shop weren't really, how do I say this, our kind of place. Not even for window shopping. Hehe.. Anyways, we had a good time walking around and headed to Starbucks for a light supper. Caramel Latte for me and Mocha Chocolate Chip frappuccino for hubby and as usual he has to share it with Imran ngan Hani.

Happy Father's Day!!!

We love you this (imagine Imran stretching his arms out) much!!

Family vacation

Since the beginning of the year I've been thinking on family vacation. But nothing seems to come to mine except Genting Highlands. How lame is that? But that's the only place where Imran actually had fun. The only thing missing was a swimming pool. Hahaha...

We tried out spending a day at Sunway Lagoon. Definitely not worth the money. All the kids wanted to play was in the shaded pool. Both were scared of the slides. No, not the big one of course. The ones in the kiddy pool. Well, there goes the trip to Bukit Merah and Lost World of Tambun.

Then there are the islands. Redang? Tioman? Perhentian? Even Hubby agreed there's nothing interesting there other than the beach. And with kids? Definitely a no-no. Langkawi? Penang? Not a big fan either.

So what's left? Overseas? Unfortunately no budget for that. Still figuring out how to save money to go to Disneyland. Hahaha....

Kindergarten Picnic

Last Thursday I took half day leave to join Imran's kindergarten picnic. And yes, I've almost used up my annual leave this year. So Hubby better get ready to use his for the 2nd half of this year.

Anyways, I brought Hani along for the picnic and made egg sandwich. Both of them had fun. We were so exhausted that I almost did not make it to work.

Happy Mother's Day!!

No words can describe how I'm feeling right now. I got all these emotion to let out, but somehow it just won't come out. All these mixed feeling for my family can really drive some mothers to the edge. But with these two scoundrels around, I have always managed to keep sane. Hahaha... Cause no matter how crazy my days goes, Imran and Hani always and I mean always managed to get me back on the ground.

I need to stop blaming my mom for not preparing a manual for me. She didn't have hers either. I can do the payback to my kids like some mothers do, or I can teach them and avoid future argument. Plus my kids will think I'm super cool and will not think twice to have me in their home. I need to stop figuring out what I did wrong in the past and start thinking what to do with the ones I have now. I need to spend more times with Imran and Hani because I think I'm starting to miss them already.

But right now, I am savoring the time I have left until they wake up from their afternoon nap.

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there!!

6 years and counting...

Got loads of things to write but somehow no energy to type.. so...

HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY TO ME!!

I am glad that Hubby made the decision 7 years ago.. and now here we are... with two wild kids and a home still waiting to be decorated.. (Byk benor dinding kosong.. Dapat gantung TV jek.. haha)

Happy Birthday Hubs!!

Happy Birthday to you

This is your day

On this day for you

We´re gonna love you in every way

This is your day, your day

Happy Birthday to you, to you

Happy Birthday to you

You´re still young

Age is just a number

Don´t you stop having fun

This ist your day, your day

Happy Birthday to you, to you

This day only comes once every year

Because you´re so wonderful

With each and every thing you do

Hey

Happy Birtday to you

You´re still youn

Age is just a number

Don´t you stop having fun

This is your day, your day

Happy Birthday to you, to you

This day is only for you

'Cause you´re so special in every way

Happy Birthday to you

Working Mom or SAHM

Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to list the pros and cons between the two. I just want to make a note to myself of why I have chosen to work and leave my kids at home with a stranger.

When I finished my degree, it is the obvious you have to find work immediately. Especially when you have plan to pay back your student loan. Not to mention if you delay on the job hunt, the interview session would not be impressive. Since I got engaged right after my final exam, I have no time to think. Just grab the first job offered and make myself ready for anything. Till now, I never regret working with my colleagues. They were the best team ever!! Doesn't matter that I have to work on holidays but they just make it easier for me to go through it.

Then came the baby. Hubby and I decided that I should quit and look for a normal working hour job. So I did. But ends up 3 years unemployed but helping out with his business. Not exactly a SAHM right? I spend 12 hours at the shop with my baby. Lucky me I have a very understanding MIL. She helped out to take care of Imran when I was carrying Hani. One thing about Imran, his tantrums and demands is still under control. Not sure if this has anything to do with being the first-borne on the fact that I have already left him with third party since he was a baby.

Then came Hani. Goodness this girl can really drive me crazy!!! She was not so demanding and I had very good hope that she'll be the good girl as she was a baby. But God knows what happen when she hit her puberty at the age of 1. Aarrgghh...!!! And this was when hubby decided he can no longer continue to pay for my loans as he has already started to pay for our house loan.

So I had to think and think very fast. After 3 years of taking care of the children, I could definitely take the break and get a paying job. But this has to be a very good paying job as I can already sense the stress attack knocking at my door. Don't get me wrong when I say a break. I mean a break from the children is a much needed time for all mothers. I left Imran with MIL around 5-6 hours but she will send him to me at the shop for his booby milk. I'm referring to the break where you can do anything you want or have to without the screaming kids around. And honestly speaking, I kinda like the work stress. Hahah! Though it can lead to a certain temper rupture at home, but I know it is still under control.

Although there's one thing that I noticed. I never gain weight before I started work. Within a year of working I already a few stone. Yes, I'm exaggerating. But I definitely gain weight. And I need to lose it fast. Hold on, now I remember. I use to go on the treadmill on daily basis but now is has become the spot to hang my tudung. So that's the reason. My eating has reduced but no work-out has definitely donated the weight gain. Well, self-discipline not exactly in the top list in my life dictionary.

Imran and Hani has yet to be attached to my maid. Even after one year with her, they still come running to me for everything. So it doesn't really make any different on the losing attention issue. But I really miss the walk-to-the-park session. I used to get Imran on his bike and Hani on the stroller and went to the park nearby our house. And now I'm either too tired or not at home. Weekend is always an outing day. And I find out that the kids is definitely not having a good time. So I would bribe them with books. Both have turned out to be an avid reader though none of them can read yet. Imran has taken interest on learning the words but right he's still memorizing. As for Hani, well, she has already demanding for me to read books. Gosh! if only I'm a SAHM I would have all the time to go to the park and read books to my kids. Then again, I don't think I can afford as many books as I have today.

I wanted to scream....

It has been a week Hubby's admitted for dengue... Good news, dengue is officially gone on Thursday. But... his fever was not. The diagnose? His right hand was infected. Arrgghh!! One thing after another... I'm pretty sure if it were my kids, I could've handled it better. But somehow this time I can't control my temper. When he broke the news his fever is still there and doctor is keeping him for another day, I had to leave. I was so sure that he'll be discharged today. And now my headache is killing me. I'm just exhausted mentally and physically.

Not to mention all the workload in the office. Ever since Imran went to kindergarten, I have been arriving late to the office. Bear in mind, in my field, you are not allowed to be late. Not even 1 minute. If you have clocked in 8.01 am (shift starts 8 am), you have been marked for late attendance. I am so torn in between. Hubby had asked me to just stick to my usual shift but now I'm in the doghouse for being late. I got another month and a half until the next shift changes. I will definitely asked for a later shift. Until then, I have to come up with alternatives to arrive early.

False alarm...

on the measles case. I really thought Imran got measles with the tiny red spots all over his body. Turns out it's one of the symptoms for viral fever. Can't blame Mom for panicking though. Hahah!

Anyways, Hubby's fever definitely went for the worst when he's admitted for Dengue. It rang the house alarm to check on any mosquitoes breeding places. No matter how convinced you are that the fever did not start at your home, you just never know. But for now, Hubby somehow convinced he got this during his visits to Nilai. The fact is we do not get mosquito bite at home. Heh!!

Last night I had to leave the kids and my maid with MIL. Spent the night with Hubby at PMC to watch his temperature. I remember when my dad was admitted for the same case, his fever was so high that he kinda lost his sanity for a moment. Talking gibberish and no one could understand what the heck he wants. Thank you MIL for helping out. Even though she has to take care of FIL who is still recovering from his leg operation to remove blood clot.

The very selfish part while handling my family right now is thinking about work. I got a lot in my hand. And I just don't know whether others got the time to help me out with my tasks. I am really worried. I don't even know who is exactly my back up. Hubby kept telling me, sometimes you need something to screw up before you can argue on whatever request you need for your team. I just pray I still got time on Monday to cover up all the losses. If there's any.

Measles came to visit

Got back from working late in the office. Greeted by a very weak Hubby. His fever is not getting better. Ate dinner, watched Chuck.. doing the usuals.. until...

Went to Imran to take a look at him sleeping soundly on the couch. And something caught my eye. His legs are covered with red spots... Oh God no! Lift up his jammy and walla! He got red spots all over his body. Then only I noticed the red spots has actually covered his face. I know it wasn't there this morning. Must have come out during the day and nobody noticed it.

To make things even more interesting, there's a chance Hubby is having measles too. So tomorrow's first thing to do is a visit to his doctor and Imran's paed at PMC. Gosh! I must be ready for and earful of lecture.

And now, I have to pray Hani's body immune is strong enough to fight the measles attack. Haiiyaaahh!!!

It's February...

Hubby's birthday coming up and I have no idea what to get him. Perhaps just a nice movie and dinner time would be good enough.

I started this month with Imran missing school. He got quite a high fever yesterday which has subdued last night. But this morning he gave me a fright when his nose was bleeding non-stop. Hubby kept telling me not to panic because it'll make things worse. Sorry Hun, I can't stand the blood actually... Anyway, finally the bleeding stopped but I still need to bring to the doctor. So told my boss I have to take emergency leave. But somehow it's kinda worrying as I still got a lot of work to finish today. Hmm... I'm just glad Hani is not falling sick.

Gosh...

I was running late, yet again to the office and went to jot down the time when a lady asked me...

Lady : What time your shift starts?

Me : 8 o'clock. Should've been here on time if the traffic was all right. Got one car ran out of gas in the middle of the road.

Lady : What time you went out of the house?

Me : 7. Have to drop my son at kindergarten.

Lady : You have a son?

Me : Yeap. Got two kids. Why?

Lady : You don't look like you have kids. You look young. Too young to have kids.

Me : Sweetheart.. you just made my day... Thank you very much!!!

*smiling all the way to the workstation...*

Sony Ericsson S312 For Sale!

Just to help out Hubby to sell this one week old phone. Still under warranty. It was a transition phone while getting his new gadget. And it is for sale for RM350. Price is negotiable. Comes with 2GB memory card.

You can browse for more the details at http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/products/mobilephones/overview/s312?cc=my&lc=en#view=overview

Photo taken from www.sonyericsson.com.

Imran's story

He has been going to kindy for almost a month. Surprisingly, his wailing came on the second week. He started refusing to go to school. Crying and wailing at school. The teachers actually struggled to carry him inside. They asked me to leave and let them handle him. Trust me when I say these people do know how to handle Imran. Some of the days when Imran just sat on the floor not wanting to budge, one teacher actually said. "Kena biar dulu, tak boleh tegur. Nanti dia okaylah." Basically they do not force kids to stop crying or sulking. Let them be first. Once the rest of gang arrive, they will turn on their play mode. Hahaha....

When I asked why he did not want to go to school, Imran actually said he has no friends, and people are mean to him. I was shocked but it just doesn't sound right. I'm not saying he's lying, but something's missing. Finally Grandma managed to get the right answer. Truth is he doesn't want to go to school because he's still sleepy and wants to continue sleeping. Hahaha... My poor boy! It's never easy to wake up at 6.30 in the morning. Even for adult. But we gotta do what we gotta do sweetheart...

Basikal Oh Basikal

Hari ni aku nak guna Bahasa Ibunda.. keh keh.. Lain macam jek bunyi nyer kan? Dah laa guna bahasa bualan... Ejaan nyer sori la ye.. Memang kelam kabut.. Tahap kemahiran berbahasa dah turun.. sehingga cukup untuk membuatkan Mak aku malu. Kah kah Kah!!

Anyway, (doh kuar english plak) hari ni aku nak gi carik basikal. Basikal untuk Imran ngan Hani. Ibu dia? Lain kali je laa... Duit aku cukup utk dua basikal budak jek. Yg aku punya nanti aku cuba mintak Hubby sponsor.. Poyo jek..

Pagi tadi beria laa aku bangun awal nak gi opis.. Siap member dah sms bgtau ape aku kena buat arini.. Drive dgn perut kosong. (Air pun x sempat minum) Semangat nak siapkan keje. Tapi tak dpt korg bayangkan betapa hampa nyer aku.. OPIS ku TUTUP!!! Haishh.. takde pulak org nak OT arini.. mmg malang nasib aku. Takpe, aku boleh balik umah dulu.. sesambil carik basikal, aku ajak laa satu family singgah opis.. hahaha.... kemaruk keje betul laa aku nih

Well, harap2 ade laa bukak opis tuh nanti. Sesapa yg pegang kunci opis.. Tlg laa aku arini... Senin nyer repot blum siap lagi!!!!

Oh Crap!!

I am beginning to think my career is going down south. I am barely adapting to the new job and right now it is not looking good. Not when I have to be home ASAP. No staying late. Which doesn't really agree with my work. The distraction is more than any of my teammate could handle. Though finally we found one of the root problem.

Anyway, I left office with lots of pending work. Still deciding whether I should spend few hours early morning. Which I think I should. Just a couple of hours. Should be enough. Heh! The problem is I have to be home by noon. Promised Imran we'll be getting him a bicycle. I've been waiting and saving for this. Thought of giving it on his birthday but Hubby said it's still a long way to go. So I'll get him the bikes and we'll figure what Hubby will get for their birthday. I just hope we don't have to blow the roof to have a birthday party.. hahahah! And yes, I'm getting one for Hani too.

Adding to the hectic schedule, we got an Aqiqah invitation from Hubby's boss at 4 o'clock. So back to Klang after the bike hunt then drive all the way to Bukit Jelutong for his 6-year old niece. (And we still need to get present!). So I am having a hard time to decide.

If I don't clear up the work, Monday will be hell. With hundreds of phone calls coming, I don't think we even have time to breathe. Dear God! What have I got myself into? Did I overestimate my potential to perform? Hmm....

Mental exhaustion

Working in a customer service field requires you to be a good listener and be able to response positively towards a complaint. Sadly, that is not the usual practice when it comes to a certain point where no one wants to back down from an argument. So one party will ended up being the silent listener while making sure the other party know you're listening. Even though they know you're not.

Not sure whether I broke a mirror or walked under a ladder. I sure did not see any black cats today. But somehow bad luck kept on raining on me. One after another I received complaints on how irresponsible the company I work for. Let me get one thing straight, we do our best with everything we have. Somehow it's never enough. People always wants more. Naturally.

The phrase "Customer's always right" couldn't be more wrong. Everyday they will try to play that card on me. Well, let's pray hard tomorrow will be better...

Rejection and Tantrum

How do you deal with a very moody 2 and half year old girl who just recovered from a nasty fever? Plus she's still having runny nose and cough a little. You won't have a clue to why she's screaming on top of her lungs because she expects her mom to read her precious little mind to figure it out. So what do you do? Keep pointing and saying anything you could think of, until she gives the nod.

Hubby and I decided to start training Hani to bond with Halimah. Unfortunately the plans goes down the drain even before it started. First I was suppose to have alone time in Jusco Bukit Tinggi with my office gals. But Hubby had got the cold and had to take cold medicine which left him drowsy. He was supposed to go for a meet-up with the new tenant at Nilai. So I had to drive him and get that settled. Then came the idea of us watching Holmes. Since it would be easy for us to just get up and leave if Halimah couldn't cope. But that also went down south as Hubby is still recovering from his cold. And I am all out of ideas.

I can understand why MIL is exhausted at the end of the handling my kids. Especially Hani. She's the aggressive one. One time I told my maid to just take Hani and ignore her scream. She pooped and wouldn't let anyone but me to clean her up. My guess is that she throws the same tantrum to Grandma. Worse part, it doesn't stop with the scream. She started beating up my maid. I was standing right outside the toilet door. I had to give in to her demand. Just couldn't stand hearing her screaming and beating everyone just cause Mommy doesn't want to clean her poop.

Lately my work has been demanding me to stay a little while after office hour. I would reach home around 8 pm. That is considered late, given the fact I finish work at 5. Even Hubby is worried about next week. We're still not confident to leave Hani with Halimah. Not sure if she can handle her alone. But right now, I'm going to leave to Hubby to decide and talk with MIL. Because I'm at lost with words right now.

Thank God Imran will be at kindy from 7.30 to 12 noon!

Just when I thought

I can start to manage my life a little bit organized, I was dropped with another issue. MIL decided it's time to retire. She's no longer capable of handling my kids. My two extra-ordinary, adrenalin driven kids. Hahaha... It was never a long term plan to leave the maid with MIL. But somehow it has stretched to almost a year. And lately I have been coming home late. Another point for her to tender her resignation. Not sure of when to finalized the last day. Huhuh....

Anyway, the things she's saying about how my maid is handling Imran and Hani is a bit worrying me. Seems that she has tried to adapt my method on them. Some of the things I do is not acceptable to MIL. I tend to pat on the hand or legs if I got angry. Which is obviously a no-no for her to do. I can't have a stranger beat up my kids. I think me putting my hands on them is enough. Besides, she's going to spend more hours with them on weekdays. And I can't have them to be terrified of her. They can be scared of me. I'm their mother. Well, we'll just have to have a small talk. After I discussed with Hubby on the do's and don'ts.

Office drama has never been a good show to me. And today I witness it right in front of my eyes. Guess some people just couldn't handle bad news....

Imran goes to kindy + Hani's first to PMC for 2010

Woke up. Checked on Imran. No fever, good! Need to get ready for kindy...

Lucky me, Imran ate Koko Krunch with 'Susu Putih'. No need to pack food. Better yet, he did not make any fuss at all. Anyway, got everything ready and we're good to go. Parked my car at MIL's house and walked to kindy. Meeting up with the teacher who took Imran. Best part, he just went off without even saying goodbye. I was left there oblivious to what just happened. Well, that's good right? Saw few mothers trying to sooth their crying daughters. Hopefully it doesn't get to Imran. Heh!

Anyway, left kindy and went back home to get Hani ready for her first doctor visit of the year. Her fever is not getting better after 5 days. We're gonna a mouthful from Dr Kannu for sure today. Did a blood test for viral/bacteria infection as well as platelet count. Just for precaution. Another good news! Hani is alright. Just need to keep taking PCM and cold as well as cough medication. She should be okay in 2-3 days. I can breathe again...

Next mission! How in the world do get my kids to eat properly???

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Happy Belated New Year!

After turning the big 3-0 last month, celebrating new year was the last thing in my mind. Plus, Hani was not feeling very well. She has been down with cold for more than one week now. But we did have fun watching Alvin and the Chipmunks II at One Utama. Thanks to Aunty Shariza and Uncle Zen. Not forgetting charming Faeq and sweet Nayla. Gosh Nayla is so sweet... Sometimes I wish Hani can be a sweet little girl. Alas, I got the brutal lass. Well, guess that runs in the family.

Anyway, I've been spending the first few days of 2010 by monitoring Hani's fever. We almost missed out on Imran's kindergarten orientation. And none of us took photos. I must get myself a compact camera. Despite the article in Yahoo! saying compact camera is slowly going to extinction. Besides, I'm not those people who like to carry bulky SLR camera everywhere I go. Won't even be interested in knowing how to work one anyway. Hiks!

Right now I an trying to decide whether Imran should attend kindy tomorrow. Seems like he caught Hani's cold. Plus both of them now got a wee bit body temperature. Apart from losing the appetite, they both seems to be quite content. Imran did ask for doughnuts though. he only eats the topping. But I really don't mind anymore. As long they eat something before I gave them their medication. Believe it or not, they can wait patiently for their syrup. The funny taste doesn't really bother them.

I should be in bed, but watching Tom and Jerry show is more fascinating. I should tell my kids "Time to sleep!", but I'd rather sit in the living room and let them watch Cartoon Networks. I should..... sigh!

TIME FOR BED!!!